I'm sorry for your loss. I lost a friend and a sister to cancer just in the last few years. I've lost my Dad, Mom, Grandma, 2 sisters, and almost all of my aunts, uncles, cousins ( a lot of them) since I started this business 25 years ago. My dad had a stroke in 1987 which caused me to move back home from Indiana to Missouri. He died just a couple months later followed by my 103 year old Grandma who was living with them at the time. It can be difficult to deal with the loss, especially if you are a believer and don't know for sure the spiritual condition of those you lost. I know it is for me anyway. I know people may criticize me for saying things like being a Christian doesn't make you perfect. I truly believe that down to my very core. I believe some people do truly get saved, but don't get victory over certain sins that keep them defeated and on the surface they may not even appear Christian. God knows those who are His even though we may not.